I Wanna Miss Everything About You..Eventhough It Makes Me Cry Thinking About It.

I Miss Your Messy Hair,
I Miss Brushing Your Hair,
I Miss Your Eyes,
I Miss Your Smile,
I Miss Your Smell,
I Miss Going To The Toilet..just to smell your colonge
I Miss You Brushing My Hair,
I Miss You Smiling While You See Me Sleep,
I Miss Those Nose Rubs You Give Me Early Morning  When I Wake Up,
I Miss You Kissing Me After That,
I Miss Your Kisses,
I Miss You Hugging Me From Behind..which usually makes me cry,
I Miss You Saying My Name,

I Miss You,My Crush,My Tupa,My Sayaaanngggggg!

<3lovelyn<3

YOU LIKE IT,YOU LIKE IT YOU LIKE IT??!!

when am i gonna do all this
heh
lovelyn

Screw me..I gotta do this.

1)Give my letter to mr.alex asap.
2)SEND MY LETTERS AND CV TO HOTELS!!!!!!
3)LEARN MY FRENCH,GARMAN and ITALIAN..just in case.
4)Buy groceries(egg,chicken,rice,tomato sauce)
5)Buy hair accesories
6)Buy winter clothing
7)Get more coins
8)Check bank account(hmms..the insurance thing)
9)Go out with chiaw min.
10)Buy pencil!
11)Eyeliner
12)Drink more water
13)Study for the other 2 subjects
14)Top-Up
15)Take out *ka-ching*
16)Travel
17)Call my kawans.
18)Take out the hazelnut from my chocolates.=)
19)Take LOADS OF FUHLAMAK PICTURES before i go
20)Clean up my room and do laundry.

YOU BETTER DO IT,YOU LAZY LAST MINUTE ASS!

-bye-

The Blue Skyyy..

It was the same Saturday that we celebrated Angel's Birthday that Chiaw Min and I went out together!! It was a 15 min bus ride from the hostel to Emmen Centre. It was fun cause it's been a long time since we plan something together. Kindda bought a lot of things which cost me a bomb but worth it in the end. The sky was blue and off we go!

Chiaw Min and me eating lunch at an Asian restaurant.

 A look at the restaurant.

Chiaw Min~

Our Food!!!Fried rice and sweet and sour poulet with rice!

Shopping at H&M<3

cost me around $82.30(francs)=RM 255.13....shit.(now then i realise)

My first perfume that i bought!D&G!!

I know since coming here..i've been shopping alot,thats because back home i don't really shop that much!AND it's kindda cheeper here!

That's all folks!!

~lovelyn~

MyWeekend!

First things first: Fight and learn to accept that.

Second: On friday,went to Shahid's party at Tupa's place to celebrate EID...(what EID stands for still ar?keep on forgeting le..if it's Selamat Hari Raya..then since when change to EID lar?!)

BTW..SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL OF MY MUSLIM FRIENDS!!!!

I WANT TO EAT MALAY FOOD!!!!

ok lar..i know the last picture is from chinese food lar..but still food right!!

p/s:last picture looks obsence le..is that crab or frog?humping each other..someone catch then go fry with black pepper ar?

ON SATURDAY...

It was 3 of my friends burfdae here!Angel,Wan Teng and Joshua ge!Here are some of the pics!(Sorry..there's only pictures of Angel Party cause the rest was at the hostel celebrating!)

blowing the candles~

the birthday cake from HEINI!the candle is absolutely cute!

from left:nicky,everlyn,sun peng,me,jia how and nick

bottom left:angelina,angel and raven.

ghost pose~~

food for the birthday gal!

the dessert that me and evy decided to do for her!<3

                                     HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL, WAN TENG AND JOSHUA!!

ALL THE BEST WISHES TO YOU GUYS!!

<3LOVELYN<3

You Are Always The Opposite But I'm Afraid Of losing You.

Junebug, I remember everything
The blue carpeted floors, the tall wooden doors
I held you in my arms
Junebug, I’d burn down a picture of a house
Say it was ours, when we didn’t need it anymore

And that was when I loved you best
We were kids then
We shouldn’t think about the rest.

Oooooh aaaaaah oooohh

You’d put the moon in a basket
On your bike front by the coast
The way your face lit up in pale grief you were a ghost.
You liked to play with darkness
All the universe could give.
I was the home you once tried to escape
The dark in which you lived.

And soon they’d find you laying there
on several different homes
They’d find you laying on their porches,
did you need to use the phone?
And lure you into their rooms,
That was the last I heard of June.
That was love I could not allow

You were beautiful then,
You’re just a coke jaw now.

Oooooh aaaaaah oooohh

I remember everything
I remember everything
I remember everything
ooooh ... oooooh
Ohhhhh

You were beautiful then. I’m still in too deep.

Oooooh aaaaaah oooohh

I Wanna Hug Someone Like This.

<3lovelyn<3

it is that difficult right.

• i thought that telling you would make you care for me more, but it just didn't happen
• instead of asking whether i was fine,did i got hurt,promise to walk me everywhere,whether you could kick that guys ass next time if i saw him,asking my friends to take care of me,it just all went to waste.
• is a "Sorry,telling me that you will be there for me next time."and giving me a hug that difficult?
• instead of telling me those things,You ask me to be more matured,think and instead of acting like a 15 year old.
• i'm thinking of not being rescued.
• can you stop asking your friends to get involve when we are resolving our problem?
• giving me flowers and buying me stuff won't resolve anything at all,after what happen to me.
• I got kissed and touch all over is A BIG DEAL..I"M A GIRL.THAT IS THE DIFFERENCE.IT IS SOMETHING.
• your friend saying that you are willing to sacrifice to be with me 24/7..IS NOT A WISE THING to say to me.
• I SO WANNA SHOT YOU WHEN I TALK TO YOU.I HOPE I CAN SHUT THAT FRIEND'S MOUTH OF YOURS.
• lastly,i hate that i love you.

FML..yesterday night.

 It was the day when "ST" came over..he was really nice,cooked me lunch(fried rice with thai chili sauce mushroom) and stuff.Had a nice time talking to him.Oh,and he bought 2 bottles of wine too.Drank and chated the whole afternoon. But i just feel really bad and stuff cause all the time i was thinking of "SK". But..

1. WTH..i was expecting you to call me or send me a ass-ing msg to show at least that you care for me. That is like wad guys suppose to do when their "girl" is out with another guy you ass.
2. At least try to borrow someone phone to check that i'm alright larh!
3. Go and ask my friends to check on me!( I know lar..you said you trust me..but still right.)

Was emo-ing the whole day after that cause of stuff like that and gosh,girl like me think very far.It makes you wonder whether does he really ever care about you and stuff.

Ok, after "ST" left,since i was being like super emo, I drank the other bottle of wine sitting at the balcony.Eat dinner,and went to chiaw mien room to drink like another bottle of beer.Yea,I was emo enough ok.

Here is when the whole fuck up scary shit night happen to me.

After leaving chiaw mien room from the hostel, I thought of going to "SK" apartment. Went there,rang the doorbell and waited there for a while.After like 5 minutes, no one answer and I decided to walk back to the apartment. After reaching at the porch of the apartment, i decided to walk further down to see whether is there anyone opening his door and as i was walking just now..this guy on motorbike was staring at me.

 So i decide to not give a damn since i thought it was common.Then i saw that guy stoping his motorbike at some indian restaurant further down..(still don't give a damn). Walk back to my apartment door and rang the doorbell and I didn't know that Raven wasn't there anymore..so I waited there (cause at that time I thought maybe she was in the toilet).

Then this ass-ing stanger which was that guy on the motorbike came over to me and ask me whether is there any nearby bar that I know.So i told him there's this bar further up the road which he could go and we ask me some other questions like where am I from and stuff. We chated for a while..and then he ask me whether I wanted to check out his bike.(he got a nice bike really) 

But then i said i had to go cause i got school tomorrow.WTH..he grab my hand and said let's go for a walk. I tried asking him to let go but he wouldn't..Fuck up shit he pulled me across the street and pulled me till like behind a small alley and started kissing me and tried touching me everywhere.THAT SON OF A BITCH! We stop at several places and I tried asking him questions so that we'll talk to distract him.But still he tried coming near me.Ok..at the last stop which was at the porch JUST RIGHT BESIDE "SK" APARTMENT he said "OK,we'll talk". So i said.."No,I want to go back". Then as I was about to start walking he grab me from behind and push me to the wall and started kissing me and tried touching me all over again!! I told him.."No, I don't want sex." He replied "No sex, I want you to masterbate for me". 

I tried pushing him and said no..After like a few freaking ass minutes later,he gave up...gave him a hard push and quickly ran away.WTF!!!ASS NIGHT!!

After that, I went like "SK" apartment..which was like right beside to get help.Rang the doorbell and no one answered still.Then went back to my apartment and rang the doorbell..and lucky someone opened the door for me.Went up to 2 floor.Rang the doorbell but still no one.So the only choice was going back to the hostel.As i was about to leave,Raven, Angel and Jia How was right at the door porch..and on the right on the way back guess who,"SK,P and Cin".Asshole, said that you will come over,(ok,probably i was back in the hostel when you came,idk,or you just presume that i was busy)WTH..i was just like"Fuck you went out,din even ask me or fuck give me a call."

2 outcome could have happen to me..

1. i would usually get drunk like real fast after like a half a beer.I would just be really sleepy and lose my control.Last night I could like get really ass drunk cause i drank wine and a bottle of beer.I could have get on the guys motorbike and never will be seen again.
2. Get raped.

Told what happen to evy and the rest but not yet to "SK".Fuck this guy he's always M.I.A and changing numbers.It's not that i don't wanna tell him,it's just that he's going for an interview tmr..and i don't wanna give him stress and get him worried."You said that you were gonna came and see me but you didn't". And..after all the shit that happen to me..i saw you with P and Cin a few minutes after that.(again the girl that i said in my few last post that you guys were now ass-ing close.)

It's not that you're with the girl or what.REALLY.It's just that i thought that you saw me and i expected that you will show up after that but you didn't.

Like what evy said "He's the closest to you,like right opposite our apartment..and yet he could not protect you".