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EVERYONE ASKS ME WHY I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND, I SAY I DON'T KNOW BUT ITS BECAUSE I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE.

thanks for reading my blog without permission.i let you in so much and everytime i let you in,you invaded my privacy and it now makes me take one step.wow, you really had the guts.Yea, I'm going straight back home after everything.I don't wanna put up with shit all over again.

You Are A Blue Leopard.

Today i went to shopping with my Malaysian room mate.1 word.DIE. She was suppose to buy black pants and black shoes for work.BUT..SHE SPEND MORE THAN ME.LIKE $300 MORE THAN ME.LOLS LA WE TWO.It was like totally fun,seriously.In the end we didn't eat lunch and for dinner is instant dinner.I know..macam kaya sangat tapi balik rumah makan instant noodle.HERE IS WHAT I SPEND ON IN JUST ONE DAY.

 my boyfriend birthday and valentine's day pressie!*hopefully can fit le*

macam ni boleh ar?suit him anot??*fingers cross*

my room mate buy.NAVYBOOT HEELS.there was like 50% sale wei.It was like $2**.** somethings la.AND it cost $149.** after that.SO SUPER NICE.

my H&M buys!!!I wanted to like buy the brown one since like last week!

stupiak you know..i spend so much already,still wanna go coop and buy food.TAMAK ME.

splurge at Starbucks some more.Cai Ling Cai Ling~~

AND AT LAST.MY CHINESE NEW YEAR GIFT FOR MYSELF..

My First High Heels!!Super comfy..and it cost $87.50!!

my little babies!Quenie(my room mate) was like buy la..comfy and IT'S THE LAST SIZE LE!I'm now SUPER panjang!

the receipts(except Starbucks)

I spend like $215.55..shittttt.

i will be eating instant noodles for next few weeks.Gonna be botak soon.New hairstyle.Tomolo got work..kthanksbye.instantnoodlemylife.

lovelyn

xoxoxoxo

My Boyfriend's Birthday!!!

hello baby..the 1st of this month is your 23rd Birthday.I hope everything in life is being good to you like how you are to me.I want to love you like how you love me and hope the feelings that you have for me stays forever and I WILL try my best to be that gf that I was to be with you ok??Happy Bithday,mi amor.xoxoxoox.

I wonder if I still misses you at times.

Ugh..My Hands.My Hands.My Hands

Okk..since i'm in my IT right now,should be blogging something about it rite?Actually hor all also stoopid shit la..GOT LEARNED SOMETHING LA.which is...not being so blur during my working time and during that time my mind is at least not fill with emptyness *insects chirping*.Here is my "Daily Duties"


Tuesday,Wednesday,Thursday,Friday,Saturday,Sunday(morning before)

• mop floor(2 floors boleh tak!asshole..no wonder my hands like dip in acid stuff edi.)
• put down chairs
• do the mis-en-place
• do the ice machine
• boil hot water
• set up table for stuff
• bring down lunch
• finish eating oredi bring evelibodi plates up.
• polish glasses
• check fridge
• bring down the miso soup
• set up table for customers.

Tuesday,Wednesday,Thursday,Friday,Saturday,Sunday(morning after)

• clean glasses
• clean menu
• refill fridge
• clean table
• set up table for dinner
• put candle
• clean toilet.
• clean the bar.

Oh btw,I have like Satuday and Sunday half day off.Then Monday I have whole day off.

Shit all the chemicals,washing,putting on a fake smile and french.ugh.my hands boleh same rank as my grandma edi.see..something is wrong with the pictures of my hands..so will upload later aite.Haiz..somethimes the restaurants is so busy then gotta run up and down to put the dirty dishes which is like 2nd floor.THen when it's like busy..1000 of things are like running through your mind at the same time like you gotta know what table is eating what and should you ask the kitchen to "go" to cook the next dish.ARGH.Nvm..I CAN TAHAN.

Sooo banyak things to remember and if you like forgot or do wrongly,the boss will like say you,then the customers thats like sitting near the bar can hear.SO EMBERASSING.Then next week my senior is going and then I will be left with two new trainees which I had to teach them when my boss say that I gotta improve and not still up to that standard yet.Haiz..I wanna be supervisor leh.DAmn.HIGH HOPES.=/ 

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Taylor Swift - Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life, tell me how's your family

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier then ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping

Staying up playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side,

Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night,

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind and

I go back to December all the time